I visit one-on-one with an individual theripist every other week, and in a group councling session once a week. I did not realize how much I have been learning in group until this week when I met with my individual counclor. We got to talking about emotions and how emotions are hard for me and how I have a hard time empethyzing because although I know that it is not rational, I have a hard time feeling for others unless I know that there is a problem. I do this because I push through everything. I do not let emotions get in the way. I call and cry to my mom or whomever else will listen 9let's be honest, it's always mom) for about 30 minutes and then figure out a way to fix it. I guess that I have always been like that because I have always been forced to be like that. Between my family opperating like that, you know the whole tough it out, get over it mentality, I have been forced to ignore emotion because if I let emotion dictate everything then I do not think that I would be where I am today. Which is a good and bad thing. Accademically I have achieved so much (in fact, I was told by the head of the Rehabilitation Councling program to include my struggles with having documented disabilities in my letter of intent because "that's good stuff). On the other hand, my personal relationships have really suffered becuase of my inability to enbrace the emotional side of things.
You see, there is the Emotional Mind (where men think that women live 24/7) and the Reasonalble Mind (where women think that men spend all of their time). The problem comes when you can not find a happy medium and wind up in the Wise (logical) mind. This is where I struggle. I spend much of my time in reasonable mind and swing to emotional mind when it suits me, but to so far to an extreme that I miss Wise Mind. My goal for the next couple of weeks it to try and be mindful of which mind I am using and try to move closer to reasonable mind. I know that it is not going to happen over night, but I know that I can do anything that I put my mind to, so I guess this is just something for me to put my mind to.
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